MY, MY, It's been a long time!!!

Well, I'm sure that all of you think that I have lost the will to blog! Well not the will but the time!! Quick update...Angel baby is turning 7 months in a week, and my son is 32 months old today!!! Wow they are getting older!! I have learned so many things from the two of them. One big thing is that I thought that I was a pretty patient person!! Well, they have proven me wrong in some sense. Well, angel baby does not roll or crawl, she refuses to lay down. She finds that she loves to sit!!! goodness knows that she was blessed with a beautiful head full of black hair since birth, but she just really discovered it yesterday!! probably because her 9 month old cousin pulled it quite hard!! I recently started babysitting her 3 days a week!! Apparently her babysitter decided to go crazy on her. She called her up one day and said that she could not take care of her the next day because she did not know what she was going to do with "r" that day. Meaning she did not know what she might do to her... DISTURBING I KNOW!! I literally got a chill when she told me that. About a month ago a 4 month old baby was killed by its babysitter around this area. So that really frightened her. So she called me!! So, if anyone has any ideas on how to handle a 6mo old, a 9mo old, and a 32 month old please let me know!! So far it is rough but manageable!! Anyways, I am doing great and looking forward to Christmas!! All my son wants from Santa is some safety scissors. How cute!! Of course Angel baby does not know the difference but she is getting pretty earrings!!

I am glad that Farmwife's family member is doing better!! Tell QM I said hello!!
Merry Christmas to everyone if I don't get on here before then!!

FINALLY THE NEWS IS HEAR!!

Angel Baby's dr finally called with the news of her test results!! They are exactly what we expected...she is going to be just fine. In fact, we go back in Dec and she hopes that she will be taking her off her medicine to see if she has anymore problems and if she does not which is what we expect then we won't have to do anything anymore. If she does then more tests. The dr, I believe, thinks that she just had benign infant seizures which means that they just go away!! So until then, she has to continue taking that nasty medicine!!

Everything else is great!! Little man is POTTY TRAINED!!!! He is only 28 months!! I think that is great!! What made him do it, is that he can go pee like daddy!! (stand up) Well, he does have a few accidents when he sleeps so we put pull ups on him then!! Angel baby is getting bigger. She weighs 12 lbs!! And is super long. She is in 6-9 month clothes!!!

Gotta go she needs a diaper change!!

hello everyone!!

we are still in the hospital but a friend let me borrow their laptop!!
well we found out what causes angel baby to have apnea!! It is because she has what they call apnic seizures. she is currently getting meds by mouth for that. knock on wood she has not had a spell in 12hrs!! so they might move us out of the PICU tomorrow. we will have to see how the night goes. now they are just trying to figure out what is causing her seizures. everyone please pray real hard for her. their are some disorders that they are testing for that are pretty serious disorders. so we are hoping that comes back neg!!! well she is breathing on her own and is finally able to nurse again. she decided to pull her own feeding tube out yesterday!! she is pretty strong. well, this is just unfortunately a wait and see situation. i will prob be up here with her this whole week!! good news for me though!! my pathology tests came back negative so the cancer is gone!! we pray that it will stay away!! i will try to update this week!!!

Angel Baby is Here!!!!

Our little angel baby is here. As everyone knows, she is 3 wks early. But to some shocker, she still weighed 7lbs and 5oz and 20in long!! I know, when they told me that I was shocked!! I did great through the whole procedure. They gave me a spinal/epidural block. There plan was to do that during the csection and then when they started the other half of the surgery, they would just do a general and put me under. Well, they got done with the csection and my husband went with her. I got to here her cry and he got to cut the rest of the cord at her bedside. Then they said that it would only take another 30 min-45 to do the rest. I opted to stay awake during the rest of the surgery as long as I felt good. It was very weird. You just feel a lot of tugging and stretching and pressure. I really did not feel anything except for when they were stapling me back up at the top. It was wearing off. So he just dosed me up again and they were done. The residents had to keep reminding the doc that the patient is awake. He said a few choice words when he was trying the grab one of the organs. I think that it is so funny because you always wonder what goes on in the surgery room. they even have music playing the whole time. When I went in, Aerosmith was blasting, then it ended with some country song I believe!! Anways, it was an experience that I will never forget!!

I was great until I started feeling really bad pains in my chest. I thought it was gas. We were all getting mad because they weren't wanting to treat it as such. They thought about a blood clot in my lungs so they ran a ct scan. It came back with a possiblity and then later negative. My blood count was low, even when I left the hospital. I am taking iron for that. My arms look like I have been beaten. I have bruises all over. I was probably stuck over 20 times in the course of 4days. My fingers are still tingly and numb and I am still swollen a little in my legs and on my left side!!

All in all, I am doing pretty good. Baby is nursing great and all the time. We are getting some sleep at night so that is great too!!! Well, I have to go, the angel baby is wanting mommy milk!!

Goodnight Everyone!!!

I'm home and still pregnant!!

My Dr sent me home only to have modified bedrest for the next week and a half! Well, they did a 24hr urine on me. They found some protein. However, I had more urine output than the average person, so my doc said that he knows I am atleast not retaining the fluid that I take in!! So, I have to take my blood pressure several times a day and stay on the couch as much as I can with a 2yr old at home!! He is pretty good though. He has known for a while that mommy can't run around and play right now!!So, the csection is still scheduled for the 21st. Unless of course my blood pressure spikes to 160/110. I did have one spike when I was in the hospital. But for know, me and angel baby are safe and healthy!! She was good during everything. Her heartrate is perfect!! Anyways, I had to get to the computer for just a minute and then back in bed!! I will try and keep posted as long as my body lets me come down to use the computer!!

Rainy Days, 2 weeks, parties!!

Can I just say, I am tired of the rain already. It has been raining for the past 3 days!! Try telling a 2yr old no we can't play outside because it is raining. He says "yaining" Well the past 2 weeks have been rough. My hands and fingers are so swollen that I have carpal tunnel in the right one. The swelling is compressing that nerve. My hands are tingling and two finger tips are numb!! This is not a fun thing. Frequent trips to the bathroom every time that I bend and at night. Oh well, 2 more weeks and 3 days until my sweet angel baby arrives!!! I am so excited!!

Last week my friend from Tennessee came up with her little girl who is 7 months. That was a very good visit but short. She is coming again in June. Also, we walked at the Relay for Life here in town. I got a Survivor shirt and I had to go up with the other survivors and say what kind of cancer I am surviving from!! It is amazing all the people that have cancer in our small community. They are trying to get someone to come in and research this problem. See if there are factors that are making this happen. There was a girl that was a year younger than me that was diagnosed 2 weeks before with the same type of cancer as me but her's was further along. Then it just breaks your heart to see the four children under the age of 5 that have survived cancer!!

On a much happier note, my brother's bridal shower is tomorrow!!It is going to be a full day. We have that from 1-4pm Open House and then the spa that I am doing, and then the bacch. party!! It is a pretty mild one but I am still going to be worn out. The bachelor party is that night too!! This means that Bryce is staying at MIL house for a while then I am picking him up to stay the night with me!!

I will let you all know how everything goes!!

It's been a long time!!

I don't blog very much. I just really don't no what to say most of the time. Anyways, here it goes. This past weekend was my son's 2nd Birthday. We had a party for him!! He had a lot of fun. He loved his cake that I made for him. Since he is allergic to milk and eggs, I have to make him special things. This being one. The rest of the attendees had cupcakes. He got lots of neat gifts and clothes. His mimi and papa (my mom and dad) got him a swing set. This is still not at our house yet. That all happened on Sat. On Sunday, I had my girly baby shower. It was very nice. My sweet angel baby got lots of clothes and other neat things. I laughed when I read a card from my husband's aunt. "May she always be in style and matching!" She is a hoot!!! I said of course she will be!! Needless to say, she is going to be set from 0-3months!!

Tuesday night my husband was playing with our son. He jumped and when he landed he starting yelling for me and walked as fast as he could to lay flat on the couch. He hurt his back again. This time it was worse. I seriously thought that he might cry!! He would not let me take him to the hospital. So anyways, we iced it and put heat on it. He slept on his back. When he woke up yesterday, he could barely walk. I told him to call the chiropractor. He did and he went and they did tons of treatment on him. She said that he has a pinched nerve and the joint between the inside of his leg and his hip is out of wack!! So he goes back today and tomorrow. Then 3 times next week. By then, she said that he should feel back to his ole' self!! Yesterday, my mom, my son, and I went to my OB dr in St louis. They said that the baby is fine. I might have a bladder infection but they checked that and they are supposed to let me know if I do. I don't feel like it right now!! Otherwise, he said that everything looks great and she is really low in my pelvis. That would explain all of the pain there. I go next week to my other OB dr and she is going to do a growth scan ultrasound. I can't wait. I want to see how much they think she weighs. Other than that, I have been busy finishing the Thank you cards from the shower and making invites to my brother and sis in law's bridal shower. I am kinda in charge of that. I have too much on my plate. I am getting help from my sister though. I will be glad when that is over with. I have washed and put away every piece of clothing and blanket in my sweet angel's room. We are set. Now I am just waiting on my diaper bag so that I can pack it and get it ready for the hospital. If I could ever figure out how to download pics on here, I will include some pics of things that I talk about. If anyone knows how to explain it to me, let me know!!

I am glad Farmwife's kids made it through their surgeries!! Good luck!!

Well I haven't blogged in awhile!!

Here we go. Today is a gloomy day in Missouri. The clouds are out and stormy weather is in the air. Yesterday it was in the upper 70s and wonderful. My son and I took a walk and went to see daddy at his bank. It is like 2 blks from where we live. My son loved it. Then we came back home and played in the dirt. He loves the dirt.

I have been really busy this past weekend. I got my angel baby's room all done. I also got my son's room done. If i knew how to download pics onto her, I would show some. Anyways, I also am finding a new found hobby. I am going to start making some hair bows that clip onto the headbands for girl babies-toddlers. they also can just be put into a little girls hair.

I am also getting ready for my son's birthday party. He is going to be 2. WOw, that is hard to believe. The day after that, my friend and my mom are throwing me a baby shower. I also picked up a bassinet yesterday that a really nice friend gave to me. She had triplets and is done having kids. So she gave this white wicker bassinet to me. We never had one with my son. He slept in bed with us. She will be too small, I imagine, to sleep with us. We might let her when she gets older. It is soooo much easier for the baby and me. We all get sleep. With my son, I would nurse him and fall asleep and so would he. I was there for him all night long. We would sleep until 8:ooam. When he was about 8months old, we put him in his own bed and stopped the nighttime nursings. It was tough for both of us. He finally got the hang of it. With her, we will just have to see how things go and what type of baby she is!!

Good News on the homefront. I had an MRI a week ago. I called for the results. THere is now sign of recurrence in the pelvic region. Husband and I were very excited about that. They also schedule the csection for May 21st. 9weeks away!!!! I am soo excited for this time to fly by and for her to be here. She is doing great. Her heartrate was in the 160s and as of last week, she was already 2lbs 2 oz. They will do growth scan ultrasounds periodically to ck on her. I am doing great. I am not gaining as much weight with her as I did with my son. That is a plus!! One thing that I was impressed by when we met with the Maternal Fetal Medicine Dr. (Dr that is going to deliver her) was that he suggest that I take along with my vitamins either fish oil, flax oil, or Expecta DHA Lipil capsules. These all contain Omega 3 Fatty Acids. These are great for baby's brain developement!!! I was suprised that he suggested taking this. I have never been told that. I was always afraid to take my flax oil!!

Well, I think that is enough updating for now. I will try to get on her more often. Oh yeah, my son is now obsessed with playdough I have to roll it into a ball and her carries it around all day!!!

Yesterday was a good day!!

Yesterday, I just keep wanting to clean everything. I guess it is the pretty sunshine that is peeping through the windows. It just puts me in a good mood. I get bored if I just sit around. I cleaned out the cabinets and swept the floor in all the rooms. We have wood floors throughout the whole house. Then, I went into my son's room and I painted on one wall the lyrics to "Take me out to the ballgame." This was really fun, but boy was I tired afterwards. My son was really good the whole time. He just played with all of his toys in his room. He only plays in his room if someone is in there too!! By the time I was done with that, I had enough time to watch a rerun of Beverly Hills 90210. Then, I washed my hair and got ready for my meeting. I am an Independent Consultant for a company who sells spa products and makeup. I pamper women. I had not seen any of these women for probably 2 months now. It was exciting to see my director and to see the new products and find out what is going on now. That got over about 9:00pm. I came home and was hoping that my husband would have started putting the crib up. He didn't, however, he did move a bookcase, wash dishes, and take care of our son. So, I kindly pouted around. Meaning hint, hint, I want the crib up. He waited about 20 min. Then he began bringing up the pieces of the crib into our angel baby's room. It took him no time to put it together. Then he helped me put all of the bedding in it. Can I just say, "It is so girly and cute!!" I can't wait for her to be here and see her in it. I know that she won't be in it for awhile. She will probably sleep in a bassinet beside our bed for awhile or in our bed!! We have not decided if we want to do that with her. It worked for my son. He did not have a horrible time transitioning. It took him a few days of crying. But he did it. Anyways, we got a lot done yesterday and still have more to accomplish.

You are my Sunshine.....

First of all, I am doing pretty good. I am getting around just great. I still can't lift my son. We will be going back to the dr next week to see a neonatologist, oncologist, get an ultrasound, see the maternal fetal medicine dr, and finally another MRI!!!

The sun is shining bright and early this morning. My son told me when he woke up, "Sunny." He is starting to learn a lot of words that end in Y. He now says mommy instead of mama. I think this new profound way of saying it is just so cute. He is getting so big. I can't believe that in just one month he is going to be 2 years old!!!! I can't believe that my baby is 2. Yesterday, I took him outside and he discovered that he likes playing with dirt. I taught him how to play with his cars in it. Just like a boy, he wipes his hands on his jacket and pants. He also seems to plot himself right down in the dirt to play. I told my husband that he needs a sandbox for his birthday. I think that he would really love it.

I am trying to get the house ready before I have this baby. I know it is another 2 more months but, I would rather get an early start. My dad and my husband painted my little angel baby's room a week ago. It is PINK!!! (I am going to refer to her as my angel because she basically saved my life. If I had not been pregnant, they probably would have not found that mass.)
So, I washed all the new crib set to get it ready for the crib. So far there is no crib up. Husband said that he will get it up by Sunday. I am going to hold him to that. Yesterday, I painted small letters for my sweet angel baby's name and put them on foam board and decorated it. i have yet to put ribbon on them to hang them up. But, I was impressed with my creativity yesterday. Once that is done, her room will be all done!!
My son's room is a sports theme. He loves any type of sports. I need to paint some things on his walls yet. I painted his wood letters primary colors the other day. I am going to attach ribbon and hang them from a bat. I will then anchor the bat on his wall. I know, I know, creativity strikes again!! LOL!! These are the only 2 rooms that need to be done. My brother is getting married June 2. My whole family on my mom's side is coming in. Some out of town friends as well. So, I am trying to get all of that done so they can see my house for the first time.

I had a great weekend. My husband finally ordered his wedding band. This is a man who never took his off. We went to a creek last year with our friends. My husband was holding our son. We got in the car to leave, and he noticed that it was gone. I thought that he was going to cry, he was so upset. He felt really bad. I eventually got over it. I now demanded that he get one before we have this baby!!! So there you go, he ordered one.

Good news for once!!!

Today we received pretty good news at the dr's office. He said that yes, there are cancerous cells in the mass. There were 3 different types of cells, a low malignant cell, a germ cell, and a benign cell. He said that it is very rare to have all 3. The pathologists were excited to see this because it is so rare. However, the dr said that we will take the baby at 36 weeks up there in st louis. While they are in there doing the csection, my dr will remove the left fallopian tube and some lymph nodes and some tissue. This is all a precaution because it was cancerous. However, he said that this is a self contained mass and he believes that it is in its 1st stage. Which means that the only thing that needs to be done was the removal of the ovary, the mass, and the other parts during the csection. Now, if something comes back from the pathology report from the other things, then maybe they will take further action. But he feels since it is self contained that there should be no other need for further treatment. They will just continue to watch me every so many months after the csection. So, this is good news for us, we were expecting worse but hoping for the best. The baby girl is doing just fine and dandy. She has been kicking mommy all day long. I guess she got mad from them taking out my staples today. There was like 30 staples inside of me.

Anyways, I want to thank everyone for their prayers. They have truly been answered. I am sure that the prayers will continue. If anyone has any prayer request please let me know. I would be happy to answer them and return the favor!!
Thanks everyone!!!!

Hello everyone!!

Everyone here is my update. I was trying to get on here the other day and the computer went all weird on me. Well, anyways, I came home Saturday afternoon. It was wonderful to be home and to see my little boy and husband again. I felt really special in the hospital, it was my birthday when I was there. I got tons of flowers and balloons!! It was very exciting. My son was scared to see me in there. They had not taken my IV out and the nurse came in to listen to the little girl. He saw my staples "ouchie" as he now calls it and started crying and wanted to leave. NOw that we are home, I let him touch it and told him that the baby was still in there and mommy was okay. So he is fine now. The first thing I heard when I got out of surgery was the baby's heartrate is good. That sounded like the best news in the world that she survived the surgery!! Then I heard that I had a left oopherectomy. This means that they took out the ovary and the mass. He said that everything looked good but did not want to be in there very long because of the baby. I talked to one of his residents and she said that the other resident that I met said that he was in awe watching over the baby when they had me open. It is something that they don't get to see very often. He got to see her moving around in the uterus. After surgery the dr came in to talk to me and my family. He said that the frozen section that they took showed abnormal cells. It was rare because it could not tell anything else. Husband and I are going to see the dr tomorrow to see what the pathology report found and to get out these staples. They cut me from and inch above my belly button, around the button and all the way down to my csection scar!!Pretty big cut. I assured the dr that my stomach has not seen a bikini since prebaby anyways, and has never seen it since. So not a problem!!! Anways, we are trying to keep a positive outlook. Depending on the outcome and treatments I will have to undergo, they might have to take the baby at 34-36 wks. Just depends. I will know more tomorrow!! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. My family and I really appreciate them.

Thank- you in the utmost sincere way possible!!!

Bad news!!

Well, everyone, husband and I went to St Louis yesterday. We left at 6:30 and got home around 8:00pm. At the ultrasound, the dr said that it is an ovarian mass. She said that it is more than likely a cancerous one. She said that if it is we will have to have surgery right away. There is only a 5% chance of preterm labor when surgery is done during pregnancy. I know that is only a small percentage but still very scary. I had to get blood work and an MRI done yesterday. The MRI showed that it is definately not a fibroid. Which is what I was wanting it to be. So, husband and I are going back tomorrow morning to see the OBGYN Oncologist. We are probably discussing surgery and what happens after I have the baby. I don't know if there is any hope that it can still be benign. I will have to ask the dr tomorrow. I cried all day yesterday off and on. Luckily my husband is being very strong eventhough I know that he is probably crying inside. I just keep thinking to myself that I am so young and I am going to have 2 young children. I don't want to be away from them. I definately don't want to be without them or them without me. I always think the worse of the situation but I can't help it. Anyways, this is not a very good Valentines day present or 25th Birthday present!!
Please everyone keep praying for me and my family!!

Tomorrow is the day!!!

Tomorrow, my husband and I will be heading to St Louis around 6:30. We have to be there at 9:00am to get the ultrasound done. I am a little worried and nervous. Of course, I have all of the bad thoughts running through my head. I always think of the worse case scenarios!! However, I am sure that things will be okay with me and the baby. I feel that if my Dr. thought that it was incredibly bad or life threatening, she would have sent me up 2 days after finding the growth on my uterus. At least that is what I would have expected her to do. Wouldn't you be really mad at the doc if it were something bad and you have been waiting all this time to get the ultrasound done??? Well, anyways, thanks for all the prayers. I will let everyone know what we find out tomorrow. Just wish us luck!! At any rate, I get to see a picture of her again and here her little heartbeat to assure me that she is doing okay. Our son is staying with my MIL. She doesn't watch him very often so I hope he will not get too upset for staying there pretty much half a day. That is the last thing that I want to have to worry about. So, we are off tomorrow and I will let everyone know.

First time blogger!!

I have read many blogs and I get on here everyday to read Farmwife's blogs. I think that it is a way to express myself and get to virtually talk to other adult women. I stay at home with my son and there is only so much you can talk to him about. So, this is a way to get to know other mom's!!! Please be patient because I am new at this. I might not be as creative as all of you but I am trying!!!