A look back on a year ago today!!!

One year ago today, Jeff and I were awaiting the news that would change our lives!! I was about 24wks pregnant with Alyvia. I was being sent to Barnes Hospital in St Louis for an extensive ultrasound because of the mass that my regular OB found at my 20 wk Ultrasound. Jeff and I mad the trip up there that morning on the 12th. I had the Ultrasound and was basically told that it did not look good and that it appeared to be an ovarian tumor and not the good kind!! Well, I was scheduled to have an MRI that evening. We stayed in St Louis all day worried to death. It was the worst thing that I thought that I would ever have to here. I was terrified to have an MRI as I am very clausterphobic (spelling)!! Jeff went in there with me and stood by my head. Luckily I could see out!! But I was scared because they don't do MRI's on very many pregnant people!! I knew that it was very necessary to get done. So the Radiologist was very nice and he knew that I was worried. He called us in the office and showed us the pics. He thought it would give us a piece of mind to atleast see Alyvia. They took pics of Alyvia to because it is not very often that they get to see this. Jeff said that his office went from having one person to about 10 people in it as they were scanning me!! He basically told us then that it was not a fibroid it really looked like a large mass on my left ovary! So , we were scheduled to come back up there to see a Gynecological/oncologist on Feb 14th!! The next day, lots of tears were shed and worries to be had. What was I going to do and how do you explain to a 2year old what is happening. I tried to put on a brave face in front of Bryce eventhough I was heartbroken inside. So Jeff reassured me that everything was going to be okay. Lets just see what the Dr. is going to say!! So we went up there on Valentines Day (Wed). We met with him and he discussed with us the only option that we had. Surgery. What surgery when I am 24 weeks pregnant. This is what I was thinking. I knew in my heart that she would be okay, but would I?? Well, we were in his office which seemed like an eternity. (2hours) He discussed with an OBGYN on what to do. Whether to wait and take Alyvia early or do the surgery now and the take her at 36wks. This seemed like the better option. I was put in the hospital that day and was scheduled to have surgery the next day on the 15th!! During this time I was missing Bryce just wanting to see his little face!! Well, My parents got together some clothes and brought them to us. His mom watched Bryce. My surgery went good and they removed the mass and the left ovary. Alyvia's heart rate was great during the whole thing. I was relieved to feel her kick as soon as I was in recovery and awake. I vaguely remembering them say that her heart rate was very good and she was doing fine. That was more of a concern to me then my own self. They told me before that if I had gone into labor that they would have saved me and not her because at that gestation age she was not really viable. That was hard for me to comprehend and it was against every moral belief that Jeff and I have!!
Well, I was then told that the mass seemed to be self contained in my left ovary. So, we just had to await the pathology reports in one week to come back. I spent my 25th bday in the hospital. The hospital even made me a cake and brought it to me. Jeff stayed at the hospital with my while our parents took care of Bryce. I went home I believe in like 3-4 days after surgery. I had to take it easy as I had an incision going from about an inch above my belly button and around it all the way down to my previous c-section scar. This incision seemed even bigger because it was on a growing pregnant belly.
I went to the Dr in a week to get the staples removed and to find out the dreaded words. It was Ovarian Cancer Stage 1!! Mine was a very rare kind in which it had 3 different types of cells in it. Well, this was the only treatment I needed until I was 36 weeks.

MY, MY, It's been a long time!!!

Well, I'm sure that all of you think that I have lost the will to blog! Well not the will but the time!! Quick update...Angel baby is turning 7 months in a week, and my son is 32 months old today!!! Wow they are getting older!! I have learned so many things from the two of them. One big thing is that I thought that I was a pretty patient person!! Well, they have proven me wrong in some sense. Well, angel baby does not roll or crawl, she refuses to lay down. She finds that she loves to sit!!! goodness knows that she was blessed with a beautiful head full of black hair since birth, but she just really discovered it yesterday!! probably because her 9 month old cousin pulled it quite hard!! I recently started babysitting her 3 days a week!! Apparently her babysitter decided to go crazy on her. She called her up one day and said that she could not take care of her the next day because she did not know what she was going to do with "r" that day. Meaning she did not know what she might do to her... DISTURBING I KNOW!! I literally got a chill when she told me that. About a month ago a 4 month old baby was killed by its babysitter around this area. So that really frightened her. So she called me!! So, if anyone has any ideas on how to handle a 6mo old, a 9mo old, and a 32 month old please let me know!! So far it is rough but manageable!! Anyways, I am doing great and looking forward to Christmas!! All my son wants from Santa is some safety scissors. How cute!! Of course Angel baby does not know the difference but she is getting pretty earrings!!

I am glad that Farmwife's family member is doing better!! Tell QM I said hello!!
Merry Christmas to everyone if I don't get on here before then!!

FINALLY THE NEWS IS HEAR!!

Angel Baby's dr finally called with the news of her test results!! They are exactly what we expected...she is going to be just fine. In fact, we go back in Dec and she hopes that she will be taking her off her medicine to see if she has anymore problems and if she does not which is what we expect then we won't have to do anything anymore. If she does then more tests. The dr, I believe, thinks that she just had benign infant seizures which means that they just go away!! So until then, she has to continue taking that nasty medicine!!

Everything else is great!! Little man is POTTY TRAINED!!!! He is only 28 months!! I think that is great!! What made him do it, is that he can go pee like daddy!! (stand up) Well, he does have a few accidents when he sleeps so we put pull ups on him then!! Angel baby is getting bigger. She weighs 12 lbs!! And is super long. She is in 6-9 month clothes!!!

Gotta go she needs a diaper change!!

hello everyone!!

we are still in the hospital but a friend let me borrow their laptop!!
well we found out what causes angel baby to have apnea!! It is because she has what they call apnic seizures. she is currently getting meds by mouth for that. knock on wood she has not had a spell in 12hrs!! so they might move us out of the PICU tomorrow. we will have to see how the night goes. now they are just trying to figure out what is causing her seizures. everyone please pray real hard for her. their are some disorders that they are testing for that are pretty serious disorders. so we are hoping that comes back neg!!! well she is breathing on her own and is finally able to nurse again. she decided to pull her own feeding tube out yesterday!! she is pretty strong. well, this is just unfortunately a wait and see situation. i will prob be up here with her this whole week!! good news for me though!! my pathology tests came back negative so the cancer is gone!! we pray that it will stay away!! i will try to update this week!!!

Angel Baby is Here!!!!

Our little angel baby is here. As everyone knows, she is 3 wks early. But to some shocker, she still weighed 7lbs and 5oz and 20in long!! I know, when they told me that I was shocked!! I did great through the whole procedure. They gave me a spinal/epidural block. There plan was to do that during the csection and then when they started the other half of the surgery, they would just do a general and put me under. Well, they got done with the csection and my husband went with her. I got to here her cry and he got to cut the rest of the cord at her bedside. Then they said that it would only take another 30 min-45 to do the rest. I opted to stay awake during the rest of the surgery as long as I felt good. It was very weird. You just feel a lot of tugging and stretching and pressure. I really did not feel anything except for when they were stapling me back up at the top. It was wearing off. So he just dosed me up again and they were done. The residents had to keep reminding the doc that the patient is awake. He said a few choice words when he was trying the grab one of the organs. I think that it is so funny because you always wonder what goes on in the surgery room. they even have music playing the whole time. When I went in, Aerosmith was blasting, then it ended with some country song I believe!! Anways, it was an experience that I will never forget!!

I was great until I started feeling really bad pains in my chest. I thought it was gas. We were all getting mad because they weren't wanting to treat it as such. They thought about a blood clot in my lungs so they ran a ct scan. It came back with a possiblity and then later negative. My blood count was low, even when I left the hospital. I am taking iron for that. My arms look like I have been beaten. I have bruises all over. I was probably stuck over 20 times in the course of 4days. My fingers are still tingly and numb and I am still swollen a little in my legs and on my left side!!

All in all, I am doing pretty good. Baby is nursing great and all the time. We are getting some sleep at night so that is great too!!! Well, I have to go, the angel baby is wanting mommy milk!!

Goodnight Everyone!!!

I'm home and still pregnant!!

My Dr sent me home only to have modified bedrest for the next week and a half! Well, they did a 24hr urine on me. They found some protein. However, I had more urine output than the average person, so my doc said that he knows I am atleast not retaining the fluid that I take in!! So, I have to take my blood pressure several times a day and stay on the couch as much as I can with a 2yr old at home!! He is pretty good though. He has known for a while that mommy can't run around and play right now!!So, the csection is still scheduled for the 21st. Unless of course my blood pressure spikes to 160/110. I did have one spike when I was in the hospital. But for know, me and angel baby are safe and healthy!! She was good during everything. Her heartrate is perfect!! Anyways, I had to get to the computer for just a minute and then back in bed!! I will try and keep posted as long as my body lets me come down to use the computer!!

Rainy Days, 2 weeks, parties!!

Can I just say, I am tired of the rain already. It has been raining for the past 3 days!! Try telling a 2yr old no we can't play outside because it is raining. He says "yaining" Well the past 2 weeks have been rough. My hands and fingers are so swollen that I have carpal tunnel in the right one. The swelling is compressing that nerve. My hands are tingling and two finger tips are numb!! This is not a fun thing. Frequent trips to the bathroom every time that I bend and at night. Oh well, 2 more weeks and 3 days until my sweet angel baby arrives!!! I am so excited!!

Last week my friend from Tennessee came up with her little girl who is 7 months. That was a very good visit but short. She is coming again in June. Also, we walked at the Relay for Life here in town. I got a Survivor shirt and I had to go up with the other survivors and say what kind of cancer I am surviving from!! It is amazing all the people that have cancer in our small community. They are trying to get someone to come in and research this problem. See if there are factors that are making this happen. There was a girl that was a year younger than me that was diagnosed 2 weeks before with the same type of cancer as me but her's was further along. Then it just breaks your heart to see the four children under the age of 5 that have survived cancer!!

On a much happier note, my brother's bridal shower is tomorrow!!It is going to be a full day. We have that from 1-4pm Open House and then the spa that I am doing, and then the bacch. party!! It is a pretty mild one but I am still going to be worn out. The bachelor party is that night too!! This means that Bryce is staying at MIL house for a while then I am picking him up to stay the night with me!!

I will let you all know how everything goes!!